The TRUTH that was NEVER the TRUTH after all

October 2nd, 2007 by meekoh

I have had learned lots of lessons and have known things that I should and should not have had knowledge of. It was not that easy and is still not easy.

All my experiences were worthwhile - some memorable but many of those have made a different impact on my being. Those experiences have left me scars - scars that aren’t easily blown away by the winds of time; scars that are for forever etched in my soul; scars that would remind me of all the hell and glory of what I have gone through.

At times I feel so uncertain and dubious with what life and existence is all about. It is so full of enigmas that would make you long for the truth - a truth thatt will be forever hidden in the mysteries of living; the truth that had made me skeptic each and every day; the truth that once told will surely not give me a sigh of relief; the truth that everything you see are nothing but lies and recreations of the human mind; the truth that made people believe that there is still hope; the TRUTH that was NEVER the truth after all.

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rELiGioN

August 20th, 2007 by meekoh

There have been lots of connotations of the word “meditation” and it has been like that for the past several years. No one really, or shall I say, fully understands this uttered word or even completely define such practice. Though we admit that we usually hear them, most of the religious people, say that they do practice such ritual. No one really knows. Or better yet leave it to their keeping – a sense of respect to those few who deems it that way. But what really is meditation? How did, does and will it affect one’s living? Or will it ever affect man? Questions left unanswered up until now.

    

     Commonly, people would tend to go somewhere isolated where they can be alone and set their minds in the rhythm of nature – to find comfort and inner peace, to focus on the here and now. It would entirely depend on one’s culture and tradition – an arbitrary. But, nonetheless, however or whichever it may be, it all comes down to one thing, a branch of learning that ameliorates us to find an inner haven of tranquility, vigor and astuteness. It is a burning zeal – fervor for unity and sovereignty. It is something that we can always fall back on whenever our paths and focus go astray, our lifeline so to say.

     It may or may not affect you but sooner or later you’ll realize its fundamental nature – may it be spiritual, physical, physiological and psychological. Each has its different effects on man scientifically speaking. And it has always been a channel for self-renewal, security and an augmented worth of existence.

     We may not know it but it had at least once in our lives passed through our veins running like oxygen to our blood streams. It comes unnoticed. You may be sitting on a couch and suddenly feel a sudden gust of the breeze touching your soft skin and unexpectedly got enchanted by it and you feel each passing wind like it were going to be your last – a moment that you won’t want to ignore, a moment you won’t cease to come into contact with.

     With all these, one gets to go through and discover what fate has in stored for us – a submission of one’s self, of one’s being, of one’s soul. Time and again, you’ll foresee that it is not only for some bubble-like religious societies but it is, too, for any living and existing soul there is no matter what, regardless of faith and upbringing.

     I wish to emphasize that it is not only for some social-gathering purposes that we do such ritual. It has, basically, turned into some stereotypical, party-like jamboree for the rich and aristocrats – a hoax.

     These people seem to have forgotten the core values that accentuate the different facets of such ritual. We tend to lose attention in instituting ourselves in the contemporary and present split second with convergence and unfussiness. We become unaware in cultivating a consciousness that is insubstantial, divested, lucid, and receptive. We fail to understand the power that moves us in our acts, conduct and even our relationships. And eventually end up being so uncompassionate toward others and too focused and bothered on ourselves alone – narcissism and self-centeredness. It is in the here and now, in the real essence of contentment and plainness. All these are the foundations on which we build our love and reverence to our lives.

     We should never do extremes that would solely kill its real meaning. We should always have this right attitude toward it. It may be hard though but it’ll surely give you a good sigh of relief after all. One must always have the willingness to learn, an open-mind, patience in everything you do, the motivation to keep you going a life filled with simplicity and dedication. Most importantly, the humility to accept that you too falter, that you are human.

     With all these in you, we may be able to find that happiness our hearts have long been longing for. We turn away from making a barrier out of the fantasies we always deem real. We get to accept the world and its imperfections and ignore all our disillusionments, anxieties, infirmity and bewilderments. We unleash our capacities to think harmoniously with the world and everything there is and have that creativity in looking towards life in a very optimistic way. Sooner or later, we begin to see clearly the mode in which we can affect the world, its people and by the manner that we too are affected by it. We begin to see that our wreckness changes into clearness, our entrapments to liberty, dissatisfaction and forlorn to exhilaration, and our anxieties to tranquility. “For he who pursues righteousness and kindness will find life and honor (Proverbs 21:21).”

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guess what?!

August 3rd, 2007 by meekoh

have been through a lot of frustations in my life. anyhow, it has been worthwhile for it opened my eyes to the reality that exists around me. sometimes, i fail to see that there are a lot of things i should be grateful for. it’s just that i too fail to acknowledge its presence. we are blinded of what we wanted to see and hear. then and there, our frustrations, in a snail’s pace, creeps into our veins slowly poisoning our minds. one might disagree with what i wrote in here but let me tell you, one refuses to hear and listen. because of that, an arguement arises and we end up not only frustrated but certainly miserable.

my mom used to tell me that one has a miserable life because he chose to trudge on that path. it ends up to one’s stubborness and one begins to hide and would prefer the things that are wrong. it came to my realization that i too am a very miserable and frustrated person - because i chose to be one. everybody has his own free will, you see. with whatever decisions you made, making or are about to make, listen from within, from the people around you. it won’t do you any harm if you’ll just let your heart and ears be open to all the changes life and fate has been and will be offering.

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SPECIES DO NOT CHANGE OVERNIGHT

July 8th, 2007 by meekoh

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Species do not change overnight, or even in the course of one lifetime. Rather, evolutionary change usually occurs in tiny, almost imperceptible increments over the course of thousands of generations—periods that range from decades to millions of years. To study the evolutionary relationships among organisms, scientists must perform complex detective work, deriving indirect clues from the fossil record, patterns of animal distribution, comparative anatomy, molecular biology, and finally, direct observation in laboratories and the natural environment.

Like me, it might take a lifetime for me to totally change all the things I want changed. It may cost a lot for me to do as such but in the end, I know, eventually, it will be worth it.

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Life is a constant world that has its never-ending changes - we have to face each circumstance with no BUT, no WHAT IFS, no HOW nor WHY. We have to life each day to the fullest and accept things as they come. Rushing things would just make all those confusions worse.

Our lives are entirely different . We came from different worlds. There may be things that I may not understand but that’s sheer reality. We have nothing to do but live by it. I am having all those wishful thinkings that fate would be good to me years from now. After all that had happened, I really don’t know what and where and who to hang on to. After all, my life doesn’t have its sense of value to others anymore. People would come and go then destroy your naiveness. But i just cant blame them. I wanted it all somehow.

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DIVORCE: THE IRONY OF LOVE (An Argumentation on the Legalization of Divorce in the Philippines)

March 20th, 2007 by meekoh

Marriages occur in different reasons. It varies from those simple runaway fairy tales of love to those complicated stories of unwanted pregnancies. However, divorce may occur in a scenario of extreme superficiality and complete abjuration of tying the knot. Divorce is the exact opposite of marriage; nonetheless, it is a cliché for Hollywood stars and some rather eloquent masses. Thus let me adhere to my point which is: that divorce should be implemented if not legalized here in the Philippines.

Defining divorce in the simplest manner requires neither the pinnacles of intelligence nor the zeniths of wisdom. It is simply the official ending of marriage or separation. Thus we question, why should we end a marriage when it is bound by the laws of God? Why is it so that people have a sudden change of heart? How can we simply eradicate the tie, the intimacy, and the love that we feel? The answer: because we are human and by being human, we are prone to instances that are momentary or impermanent emotional stability – our feelings unsettling, our decisions inconstant, our passions fluctuating, and our selves changing from time to time. Thus, we need to bring an end to the misery of a futile marriage.

First of all, divorce is a widely accepted concept in the Western World. It is the solution to marriages-from-hell, the answer to every battered woman’s prayer, the remedy for the hopeless case of polygamy, the super-hero who saves the innocent victims from those bad villains. Even though divorce results to broken families and abandoned children, there is no other way if the relationship doesn’t work the way it used to. The relationship will eventually worsen and in whatever angle you may want to look at it, divorce is and will only be the sole solution. Family had always been the strongest foundation, so they say, of the society – with the typical father-mother-children picture here in the Philippines. We have been bounded to the stereotypes of our old-aged tradition – that family and God work hand in hand resulting to quarrels and injury. No wonder fathers leave home not to work but to find another haven, mothers becoming desperate even having an affair with their neighbor’s gardener, juvenile delinquents becoming so rebellious and unstoppable ignoring the real epitome of the home as a means of escape. Will we only be nostalgic to all the atrocities and anarchy within our families? Pathetic insolent fools!

Second, divorce is simply annulment put on formality’s sake thus putting a bad façade on its namesake - cloaked behind the legalities of the complex system of law-making. In a divorce action, one spouse, usually the wife, may be granted alimony or maintenance payments generally for a limited period of time. The custody of any children may be awarded to either spouse, with fair regulations made for visiting rights and support of the children. At present, joint-custody arrangements are being worked out more and more frequently by divorcing parents. “Divorce, is a legislatively created, judicially administered process that legally terminates a marriage no longer considered viable by one or both of the spouses and that permits both to remarry. Until the divorce reform movement of the 1970s began to have an impact, the legal doctrines governing divorce could be understood only by reviewing the long history of English divorce law, which was dominated by concepts of canon law.” (Microsoft Encarta 2006)

Third, divorce sets people free from the grasp of naïve husbands and miserable wives. It gives them space – some air to breathe – and another shot to a might-be-so-good-a-relationship. It is the fall-back for those who were led astray by their selfish thirst for lust, money, power and justification for all the transgressions that have had arisen. It is letting lose from strangulation of all the complexities of married life towards a road leading to nowhere. Empathy does not justify the recurring commotions nor does pity rationalize the sorrows one has suffered – a nadir to all your grievances – an unfathomable pit of the disfigurement of one’s heart and mind.

*My opinions do not need to be wallowed in your thinking. It is neither a perversion of your knowledge nor a corruption of your thought. It is a reality faced by millions of people not only in the Philippines but, too, around the world. I have placed all these in a context of the simplest argumentation for you to see it vividly and clearly – that this is a necessity of putting a halt to the miseries of households confronting this circumstance. It may, somehow, bring about a bitter tang but nonetheless, the results of such disagreements are fulfilling and gratifying.

*Note: The concluding paragraph is based on Reversed Psychology.

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Is It Wrong?

September 2nd, 2006 by meekoh

Since the world is starting to be so open with these kinds of people, I need your comments on this one. I know you have lots of things in mind when it comes to this. So here goes…

          Is FALLING IN LOVE a wrong thing to do?

          Is it wrong when a GUY falls with another GUY

          and a GIRL falls for another GIRL?

          Is it wrong when the heart says it’s right?

Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up and asked them, "I don’t get it! You can’t be positive persons all of the time. How do you do it?"

Someone replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, you have two choices today. You can choose to be in a good mood or … you can choose to be in a bad mood. I choose to be in a good mood." Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or…I can choose to learn from it. I choose to learn from it.http://www.christiangays.com/articles/choices.shtml

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Everything has a REASON

August 25th, 2006 by meekoh

          Everytime I talk about fate’s reasons of all the shit I am going through right now, I can’t help but be nostalgic - a question of why all the pain after a year-long strifes and sufferings, of difficulty to understand and grasp all that there is right now, of why certain things needed to happen. It made and continuously makes me breed butterflies in my stomach everytime thoughts such as these go ’round my mind. My paranoia’s slowly eating me. I hope someday, sooner or later, I will have that strength and courage to face the world again with head held high and heart willing to embrace such enormous change no one dares to.

          I always wish that all those who have made promises and never kept them will have the time of their lives - that karma will be right under their noses. So help me God.

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dUmAgUeTe CiTy

June 8th, 2006 by meekoh

Dumaguete_boulevard_2 I’m finally here in

Dumaguete City is a city in the Philippine province of Negros Oriental. It is the capital, principal seaport, and largest city of Negros Oriental. According to the 2000 census, it has a population of 102,265 people. A person from Dumaguete City is called a "Dumagueteño". The city is nicknamed The City of Gentle People.

Silliman_hall_1 Dumaguete City is referred to as a university town because of the presence of seven universities and colleges, where students of the province converge to enroll for tertiary education. The city is also a popular educational destination for students of surrounding provinces and cities in Visayas and Mindanao. The city is best known for Silliman University, the first Philippine university outside Manila and the country’s first Protestant school. Silliman_portal_2 There are also 12 elementary schools and 9 high schools. The city’s student population is estimated at 30,000.

The city attracts a considerable number of foreign tourists, particularly Europeans, due to easy ferry access from Cebu City, the availability of beach resorts, dive sites and the attraction of dolphins and whales in Bais City.

Dumaguete City. This will be a new start for someone like me. I have had experiences of how accommodating and of how good Dumagueteños can be. Well, for now, these pictures are all I have.

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thE rAiN aNd thE rOaD

June 5th, 2006 by meekoh

Sd_1 last 31st of may, juven, a friend of mine, forwarded me one of the best sms i have recieved my entire life. it may sound a little corny though for some but i think the lines were cute and had captivated the "RAIN" in me. Juv, for all the things, for the friendship, my sincere thanks! you’ll never be forgotten.

"they met on the road

while the sun was out

and the sky was crying.

the spent the night

with joy overflowing

- this was HEAVEN on EARTH.

but alas! twas only

when the sky was grey and blue

and darkness was all ’round.Sdf

now the sky is clear

and the sun shines bright,

no LOVE’s gonna be there tonight.

no, they won’t meet

on that road again.

let me ask you,

then when?

when will the sky be grey and blue

so that the RAIN and the ROAD

will meet again

- that HEAVEN ON EARTH

WILL BE FOREVER’S END

- the RAIN and the ROAD."

i know it always had been true that we shouldn’t let our hearts control us. they say i have to use my mind as well for not all people can give me what my heart desires. a little passion is not enough then tears of guilt start to cascade down our eyes. nevertheless, ’twas a decision i’ve made and everything you’ve read was true. at least, i never faked a thing. i know all these things are true. like the rain, i have learned that i should always do a little effort and patiently wait for that time when i have to see and meet my lil "road" again. it may take some time but i know things are gonna be a lot better. i know it’ll be hard. it was never that easy. how i wish there were easy ways. some things were not really meant to be if we chose them not to be. but no matter what happens, i know i have to settle for this. i know i may have hidden my real person. some things are better left unsaid. just like the rain and it’s road waiting that heaven on earth will be forever’s end.

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gOoDbYes dOnT mEaN fOrEvEr

June 5th, 2006 by meekoh

yesterday was the 6th of June, 2006. some would say it’s the unluckiest day. well, as we all know it has connotations with the devil’s number, the "666." yesterday’s the "6-6-06." i don’t know. i might be a bit skeptic to this but i always believed in God’s divinity though at times i admit that i do am dubious ’bout it too.

getting to the gist of what this post is all about, i’ve been thinking, do goodbyes really mean forever? that same ol’ question’s been haunting me these past days. yesterday’s the 6th, and yesterday was my last day in iloilo city - the place where i had the best and the worst experiences of my life which had, which are, and which will continue to mold me to become a better person.

my two week vacation in

iloilo

has finally come to an end. i want to thank everybody for the wonderful times we’ve spent - the tears and the laughter. i know i haven’t thanked you enough and i know i can never repay you. nevertheless i am in deep gratitude for everything. thanks! til then…

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